Depressed Dailybooth

Alright, so here’s what I’ve been doing all night! 

#DAILYBOOTH!

I know, I know, I’m such a boring loser. But I really kinda love it.

I love just sitting on the #livefeed looking at people’s pictures and reading their little blurbs they have in them. And I really like commenting on people’s pictures and having conversations with them. Everyone on there is so nice, and wants to talk! And I really feel like it’s an awesome place to be if you really do just need someone to talk to. 
There are always people who write in their blurbs that they are depressed or upset or something and I love commenting on those pictures. I love trying to make someone’s day better, or help cheer them up. Show them that people out there really do care and that the entire world isn’t heartless, you know. It makes me feel so great inside.

Which now you’re probably thinking, “Oh, you just do it so that people will think you’re a nice person..And to get attention…Blah, Blah, Blah.” 
But you know what? You’re wrong.
I genuinely like trying to help people, and I know from experience, just someone smiling can make you feel less alone, less afraid. And since I have been there before, I want to help people stop feeling that way. Because it is one of the worst feelings you will ever experience. 
Depression is a very serious matter. I know a lot people just glance over it, or say “Oh, don’t worry, they’re just depressed.” But it’s something that should not be taken lightly.
I’ve only actually had a few friends that have struggled with depression (that I know of) and I know how hard it is to get through to them. I, myself, have struggled, and still am struggling with depression.
It’s something that never goes away. It’s always there, like a small child holding onto your leg that you just have to drag along with you, because they won’t let go. You can’t get rid of it. Sure, you can go on long streaks of great days, where nothing sets it off, and you are happy as can be. But then one day, something will happen, and then for months you can’t get out of bed.

I know that we all have hardships in our lives, so a lot of people think that others who say they are depressed are just looking for attention, and it’s possible that a lot of them are, but even so, what’s wrong with smiling at someone? Or giving someone a hug? Or asking someone how their day was? Is it really that hard? Is it really that time consuming or problematic to actually CARE about other people? Is it?! 

Whoa..Was not expecting this post to turn into that, I was just gonna make a quick little post about how I liked wasting time on dailybooth…
But I guess, that goes to show that if something is on your mind, sometimes you just gotta get it out! One way or another.

This is my way,
Sonya Noelle 

You changed.

Me and my friend are fighting right now, over texting. Pretty ridiculous right? She can’t just come over and talk to me? But anyway, I told her that I’m upset that we never hang out anymore since she started dating her boyfriend and that she’s changed. And she told me that she loves her boyfriend and just wants to spend time with him and wishes I would spend time with the both of them too. 
First of all, she has been dating this guy for like two months, and after the first month they told each other that they loved each other. Which I guess isn’t that big of a deal, I mean it’s a bit hasty, but the day before she told him she loved him she was telling me how she didn’t know if she actually liked him or she just liked the idea of him. And then she tells me that they said “I Love You”… Like are you kidding me?! How can you possibly change your mind that fast?! It kind of pisses me off. 
And then after a few more weeks went by, she told me they had slept together. Now by societies standards that is fine and happens all the time, but she had never slept with anyone before and always said she wanted to wait until marriage. So that really took me by surprise. 
So in my opinion she really has changed; she’s a totally different person now.

Secondly,  I don’t want to spend time with her and her boyfriend. I feel like a third wheel when I’m with them, and they are always all cuddly and what not, which makes me realize that I’m alone. And kinda makes me depressed.

I told her that and she tell me that I’m not alone, there are a lot of people who love me. And yes there are, friends. But I don’t have a guy in my life even a little bit. And then she started scolding me that it’s my fault that I don’t have a guy, because I turn away every guy that actually respects me. I asked her what that was supposed to mean, and she just wrote “Danny….Joe?”
Danny was my boyfriend junior year and we dated for about 8 months on and off. And this year we kind of got back together and had a thing, but I broke it off before it got too serious because, I really like Danny and think he’s a really nice guy, but we never have anything to talk about. Also he is 2 years older than me and almost done with school; he’ll want to settle down soon and that is not what I want. So it just wouldn’t work. 
I dated Joe for about a month this fall; he was a really great guy and he was so sweet to me, but I realized I didn’t really like him in that way so I broke up with him. But I still talk to him and we’re friends.

So I don’t understand why she is scolding me for breaking up with those guys because I had very valid reasons and I believe it was the right thing to do. It makes me so mad that she is yelling at me about my love life choices; it’s none of her business. She can be with her boyfriend and I can hang out with my other friends if she is going to be that way. 

Sorry that this was so random. I just really needed to vent :P 
Sonya Noelle